| The summer wind came blowin' in . . . |
[Aug. 11th, 2004|09:38 am] |
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| |  amused | ] |
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| | Maria Mena - Fragile | ] |
I want to go to the beach. I want to get out of this town for just a few days in a row. That'd be wonderful. I don't mind this town but just a few days away would be nice.
I like updating this thing I just always seem to forget.
I feel like dancing to old skool jams.
*sings*
Play that funky music
WHITE BOY
Play that funky music
WHITE BOY!
Love that song. . . |
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| Feelin' Frenchy |
[Jun. 22nd, 2004|04:41 pm] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
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| | Zero 7 | ] |
Bien je ne parle pas le français mais j'utilise un appareil de traduction pour faire que pour moi. J'ai voulu faire une entrée utilisant la langue française parce que je pense c'est beau, donc me permettre de commence.
Je me sens si perdu maintenant. Tout semble avoir eu une solution dernièrement. Pourquoi alors sens-je cette façon maintenant ? Je n'a pas d'indice. Peut-être les choses ont juste arrivé si rapidement qu'ils ont gauche m'ai perdu si. Peut-être je suis juste par-dessus la vie de analizing. Je ne suis pas completement sûr que je sais juste maintenant que je me sens perdu dans quelque secteur. Me trouver, oh fera ne vous me trouvez pas. |
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| These boots are made for walkin' and thats just what they'll do |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|07:39 pm] |
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| | Artist: Jem | ] |
Whelp, life is like a fish bowl.
haha.
Fish bowl.
...
hahhaha.
Sorry, just the thought of life - as a fish bowl.
hahahha.
Whelp, had a nice day at a club, A TENNIS CLUB THAT IS! One of my BEST friends, Sarah, went with me to go swimmin' and we ate some fries. Turned out to be quite the small adventure. Didn't get to see my lil' homeless girl. We missed each other, I mean we really missed each other by a hair. She was actually there and she looked at the pool but I believe at that time I was eaten fries with Sarah. The odds. Makes me sad. Well, what can you do? ::shrugs:: Got to meet some other interesting people though.
::goes back to subject::
One of these days, these boots are gonna walk all over you.
Fin. |
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| PLANS! BLAH! |
[Jun. 12th, 2004|02:22 pm] |
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They seem to never work out. |
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| Secksie! |
[May. 18th, 2004|12:14 am] |
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I am so tired right now.
Tired of the now.
Now I am tired.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Swings are awesome. I need to find some fast! |
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| YEEEEEYUHHHHHHHHH |
[May. 14th, 2004|04:55 pm] |
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| |  chipper | ] |
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| | "Culo" by Pitbull ft/ Lil' John | ] |
I cannot wait for Graduation and for grad night to come. I am excited. Actually I cannot wait for May to be over. I have all of these papers and work to do, so the sooner that this month is over I can just study for finals and be done with this quarter. Oh yeah! Then I will have the summer off and can start college back up again in the Fall. |
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| AHHHH! I am back! |
[Feb. 20th, 2004|05:06 pm] |
HEY HEY, WOW! I have not updated in here for so long. Wow, so much has gone on. I can't even begin to start posting about stuff. So I won't. I need to keep updating this at least on a weekly basis.
Well, I shall.
Lata
-Parker |
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| You'll Be Missed, Willy! |
[Dec. 14th, 2003|10:33 pm] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
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| | Drops Me Down-Lisa Loeb | ] |
I was just informed tonight/today by my mom that FREE WILLY Died...That really makes me sad. I remember those movies. Just that time period of my childhood. Its sad. It really is. They aren't sure whether his death was caused by the captivity or if it was something else. Poor Willy, they should have had let him free to enjoy the remainder of his years...But he will be missed. Even if he is an animal, he is still going to be missed. So, weird because for some odd reason I don't really think of Willy as a whale. I think of Willy as a human being, it just seemed like he was just more aware of this world then what we really are capable of. Sad, very sad news. You ROCK Willy!
In other news, today was so busy. I had a lot going on today. So, tired. I am ready for bed. I need to hit the hay. There was a lot I wanted to do this weekend but I just was too lazy to get it done. Sad really, I mean I need to shape up. I need to get my life in order before I go pyshco on everyone.
Winter Break-It approaches soon, very soon. It is this Friday. I cannot wait. I need it. I am going to love just waking up late. Reading, writing, playing my guitar, hanging with friends at my leizure(sp?). That will be great. Ah, I cannot wait. Then college shall approach soon. Whew, I am getting anxious for it. I am ready though. I cannot wait for High School to be over. I will not go into that any further...
My feelings are jumble for a girl. I don't know what is going on with me. Maybe I have just grown fond, a little too fond and now I am feeling it. I don't want to. I don't want to feel this now. Not before I leave. *sigh* I really am lost with these emotions, it is coming really late.
Well I am going to go and hit the sheets, prepare for tomorrow. This week is going to be hella busy with Interact, a pot luck for church, getting the rest of Christmas present done for friends, getting college stuff taken care of, etc...( It could go on and on but I'll stop).
Until the next entry, verde? Miss you Willy!
-Parker |
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| WOW |
[Dec. 8th, 2003|05:43 pm] |
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| | grateful | ] |
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| | More Than Anyone-Gavin DeGraw | ] |
Well, today was going rather slow...and I was not really having such a great day. I felt drained just from friends, not really anything bad but just talking about serious stuff majority of the day...just sort of drains me...So, I just felt really tired after 3rd...I had so much more to look forward to after 3rd and everything just seemed it like it was just going to pile over me...I was just not looking forward to it. Well, in class(4th period) we had to write a poem on an activity we do(I picked Listening to Music, just the feeling I get from it)...you know what is weird...Like whenever you want to you can just write a poem or song..or whatever it may be..You can just do it...it gets done..I couldn't get my poem going till like 2 or 3 minutes before the period was going to end...I just couldn't get anything..It was just weird to me...
Lunch came along...I was with Cori and Sarah...we left and got our food...hungout for a little while and then I had to go to Mrs. Hares to get the ice and other stuff set up for the Interact meeting we were going to have afterschool..I went to go and do all this stuff for it...Well to make a long story short..I forgot to go by my Study Hall class to let him know I would be in Mrs Hare's room 6th period..well I went before the period left to let him know and all that. Well, I get in there and he gives me a hard time(jokingly(sp?)) 'bout never being in class..because I am in her class..then he checks me off and proceeds to give me a paper..well I was like "Oh, OK thanks!" Well I go to open it and the first thing I see is "Congratulations!" well I am like "HEY! WHIPPIE! GOOD NEWS!" Well, I read the whole thing and it made me feel really good what it said..I felt very appreciative that people would think and vote for me in that category. The category I am talking about is the MOST or BEST Senior things put in the yearbook...I got "MOST FRIENDLIEST!" Isn't that real nice...I mean I know, I am friendly but I was really surprised that I got that...That was just a "WOW" moment..for me...something really nice like that I wasn't really expecting for...So it made me just really happy...So thanks to the people who voted...you really made MY DAY!!!
That is it, I have a lot I could talk about but I just don't feel like going into it...but I shall post later.
-Parker |
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| About Time I updated this motha *bleep*! |
[Nov. 24th, 2003|09:02 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
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| | Milkshake-Kelis-OMG that song is soo flippin funny! | ] |
Well I Know I already made an update before this but that was just lyrics to a really good song by Christina Aguilera, hot mama sista!!! Here is an UPDATE, though...
Well, Well..it is OFFICAL! Cori and I are going to see JEWEL tomorrow!! Whoop WHOOP!! She has such an amazing voice when she does LIVE performances, so I am excited. It is going to be fun because I am with CORI!!! O'YEA!!*raising hands in motion to "raise da roof!"*
Today was so GLOOMY, I liked it!!! I love the gloominess, for some odd strange reason it makes me HAPPY! %Hmmm, I want to see ELF!% Today seemed real weird for a reason. Sorry words are failing me at this moment, I cannot explain my thoughts in better forms of words then weird. It was though. We GOT to correct our test in AP PHYSICS though that made me REAL happy because our class average on that test was really bad, it was a 16 out of 40. Whosh...
Yep not too much of one but hey! Its something! |
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| Walk Away Lyrics |
[Nov. 24th, 2003|08:59 pm] |
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| |  cold | ] |
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| | Walk Away-Christina Aguilera | ] |
What do you do when you know something's bad for you
And you still can't let go?
I was naive, your love was like candy
Artificially sweet, I was deceived by the wrapping
Got caught in your web and I learned how to bleed
I was prey in your bed and devoured completely
And it hurts my soul cause I can't let go all these walls are cavin' in
I can't stop my sufferin'
I hate to show that I've lost control cause I
I keep goin' right back
To the one thing that I need
To walk away from
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
I should have known that I was used for amusement
Couldn't see through the smoke, it was all an illusion
Now I've been lickin' my wounds, but the venom seeps deeper
We both can seduce but darlin' you hold me prisoner
Oh I'm about to break, I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiendin' for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake
I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
I'm about to break and I can't stop this ache, getting nothing in return
What did I do to desrve the pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
I need to get away from ya, need to walk away from ya
Get away, walk away, walk away...
Every time I try to grasp for air, I am smothered in despair it's never over, over
Seems I'll never wake from this nightmare, I let out a silent pray
Let it be over, over
Inside I'm screaming, begging pleading no more
Now what to do, my heart has been bruised, so sad but it's true
Each beat reminds me of you
It hurts my soul 'cause I can't let go, all these walls are cavin' in
I can't stop my sufferin'
I hate to show that I lost control
Cause I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need, Oh
I'm about to break, and I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure and I'm fiending for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake,
I keep going right back to the one thing I need, oh
I can't mend this torn state I'm in
Getting nothing in return what did i do to deserve
The pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need to walk away from
Oh I'm about to break, I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiendin' for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake
I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
I'm about to break and I can't stop this ache, getting nothing in return
What did I do to desrve the pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
Oh I'm about to break, I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiendin' for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake
I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
I'm about to break and I can't stop this ache, getting nothing in return
What did I do to desrve the pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
Oh I'm about to break, I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiendin' for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake
I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
I'm about to break and I can't stop this ache, getting nothing in return
What did I do to desrve the pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
Oh I'm about to break, I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiendin' for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake
I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
I'm about to break and I can't stop this ache, getting nothing in return
What did I do to desrve the pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from |
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| An Overdue Update! |
[Nov. 1st, 2003|06:38 pm] |
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| |  crazy | ] |
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| | Breathe-Michelle Branch | ] |
Whelp, I have not made an entry in a while and for good reason to. I have just been really busy and I have been stressed emotionally inside from numerous cosas. But I am not going to dwell on any of that. Things have been on the up lately. Well, except that my first cat Rayleen dieing. Yeah, it really sucks, she was my first cat *sigh* and I will really miss her. On another note..School has been going good. I am looking at a 4.0 or higher this quarter so that is swell news.
I recently attended the CSUB trip and it was really strange to be there. I mean just knowing I am going to be attending that school in a matter of months. It was just weird. But it was really cool to get a feel of the campus and how it is going to be. Very different though. Later on it turned into like some dance party! I am not kidding it really did. It was crazy, but I had a good time. Too bad I am not BLACK I would have been out there dancing.
I have been talking to Kristin a lot more now. She came and picked me up after I got out of school and we went to lunch at her work, Woodys. It was really cool to just catch up and hangout. I miss her. She is really funny. Her friend/co-worker was there and she was crazy. She reminded me of two outspoken blunt people I know. lol. Fun times! I also hungout with her at the CSUB trip.
So, Halloween *lightening flashing and thunder breaks through the dark gloomy clouds* was yesterday and it was pretty fun. I WON A CAKE! Yes, I sure did. I was with Sarah at this Festival thing at a church and they had this game where you would walk around, then proceed to sit on a chair when the music stopped. Well they had numbers on there and so they would call one out(a number) and if you were in that chair you would either win or be eliminated. It was really funny. People were getting kind of vicious for the cakes! At a church too! It was great. Sarah won too! So, did Jeff Prez (he was there to when we were walking out). So, later on in the night we saw Daniel..Then we left and went back to Sarah's casa and watched Joy Ride when Caleeb got there. It was really fun. Crazy Sarah and Caleeb. Great times. They are freaks!I wish Cori could have come but o'well what can you do. I miss her too, we really have not talked to much lately.
Yea, I wrote a lot in here about recent stuff so I am going to let that be all for now.
Lata Journal! Over and Out..
Oh! I almost forgot. Well, here are some pictures from Twin Day..well once I figure out how to do it I will put them up |
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| Breathe |
[Oct. 8th, 2003|09:52 pm] |
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| |  crappy | ] |
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| | Breathe-Michelle Branch | ] |
I am so fed up of myself. I feel so trapped inside. I want to scream but even if I would, no one would hear. So, what's the point of going crazy for help if it can't be reached. I am in a not so good mood at the time being. AHH! Where did things go from uphill to a backwards parallel? I just need to get away from myself. Maybe, I just analysis things way too much. I know I do that but some stuff I feel I am justified. School, well school I guess for right now is in the median range. I mean I have to complain about some things but I am not stressed to a psycho state, yet. But hey! There is still time. *nodding head* Someone, please take me away. Talk to me. Find some reason why I am like this. I need answers! I really do, I am too full of questions. As well as being indesive which just makes things go by so smoothly. Just dandy. Ok here is my ranting OK!
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OK, that was every cuss word in English, Spanish and Portugues OK!
Whew, I am done for now.. |
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| Changes Occur |
[Sep. 20th, 2003|10:09 pm] |
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| |  indescribable | ] |
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| | Damien Rice-Delicate | ] |
Well I know that I have not made an entry in awhile. I have been going through a lot during these past weeks. Too much too soon, to say the least. But yesterday on friday it was the football game against Arvin. WE WON! WOO. That was the first game for me of the year. It was pretty much a good time throughout, expect for 2 things, well actually more like 2 people. But I don't need to go into that. I am done. It does not matter anymore. I saw many people with whom I have not seen for awhile. For one they graduated, or they left to a different school. I am going to miss KATIE, I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN AT UC DAVIS!!! She is leaving on Sunday at like 5 in the morning. How sad that is not too far from now. Hmmmm..so much going on. Well, I am going to say goodnight it is like 10:15. So, I am going to be out like my lights in just a few.. |
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| Humour Me |
[Sep. 6th, 2003|11:24 pm] |
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| |  disappointed | ] |
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| | Strong Enough-Stacie Orrico | ] |
Well, what a day, today was. It was filled with a lot of thinking of what things are coming. I was gone for most of the time today. I had some really good fish for dinner at that place called SEABREEZE. It was really good. The food amount is enough to feed like 2 people with one order. I am not kidding. It is great. Umm, I want some more. Yeah, well I have been thinking about a lot things lately. I mean life is so freakin weird. Just how things are with friends. I feel as though I have distanced myself from people a lot. Sarah and I aren't really talking. I don't know what I want. I mean I want to talk to her and have the old ways back but why. Always arguing. I feel as though I always give. I do whatever she wants, even if it is something I don't want to do. Don't friends do that for each other. Humor each other? I mean, you like to see your friends happy. I leap over fire for people, always giving and handing out. What about them, well they got their hands out most of the time. At least that is how it feels. Urgh, tired. Same ol' crap all the time. So, I guess maybe I will just wash my hands of it all I suppose. Let it all go.
On to something different. I saw my friend Cassie. She was at her work. It was crazy. I miss talking to her, she has a great since of humour. Hmm. I have mentioned Humour a lot in here. A recurring theme I guess. |
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| What Days Lay Ahead? |
[Sep. 1st, 2003|12:03 am] |
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| | contemplative | ] |
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| | To Whom It May Concern-Lisa Marie Presley | ] |
What will come? From the last entry, I have made some changes in my life. I am not the same. I no longer really get envolved in people's lives. I am like a shadow, I am there but I don't leave a valuable imprint, simply fading away by the days that creep in and out of my life. I have closed myself. I don't really like it but at the same time I do. I am happy to not involve people in my affairs. It takes away so much stress. I was thinking of just getting rid of this journal, like I did with the others. But I thought I won't do that. I am going to keep it. It is therapy, getting out my feelings. I am not making too much of an emotional attachment with these entries. So I am keeping it. What is next in my life. I have found that I have jumped on the next page and I am lost in the text. It is the almost the last page in the chapter. So, what is the beyond the chapter I have remained on? I am not too sure what lay ahead of me. It is different. This feeling. It grows inside of me. Slowly creeping into my brain, sending signals through my body, giving off fragments. Life, is more than what I believed it was. Life used to be a movie to me. But I was always watching it, never really apart of the act. I think that my part is coming up soon. |
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| Everyone Can Kiss My @#% |
[Aug. 29th, 2003|08:38 pm] |
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| |  pissed off | ] |
I am so effing tired of being all nicey nicey and taking everyone's shit. And while I do, people think that they can treat me howeer they want. Well, not anymore. I am not going to be happy positive me anymore. No! I am going back to the bad not happy ever me like I was before. I am going to push everyone away and not open myself up anymore. That is enough. Everyone can just fall into an empty black endless hole and stay there. They can see what its like where I have lived.. |
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